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Monday, July 25, 2016

信心 Confident


2016年7月25日 (星期一)

自从妈咪不在身边,我自暴自弃的程度好像越来越陷入了。
妈咪,你的影响力在我心里太深了。
以往我以妈咪为中心,有她的支持,没有事情办不到的。
现在她不在了,虽然我看起来很坚强,可是曾想过和她一起离开那该多好,不必面对现在的一切。有信心的我,已经没有自信了。活泼的我已经不再了。

现在的我必须承担所以负担与压力,老实说实在太沉重了。
24岁的我一个人面对,一个人想办法解决,不容易,也很煎熬。
除了面临钱财压力,家庭压力,工作压力,我真的已经无心做任何事情了。
已经不知我人生的目标是什么,生存的意义在哪里?

以前回家妈咪煮饭给我吃,什么东西坏,到她的手一下就好了。现在我包包坏,鞋子坏,再也不能找妈咪修理了。
以前妈咪是很好的聆听者,我一有什么事都会告诉她。现在只好默默地一个人放在心里。
今天被老板训一训,点醒了我一点点。
我知道老板一番苦心想栽培我,所以他都对我不放弃,反而我自己自暴自弃了。
曾经我是有信心,现在却落得如此地步。
整个人很疲累,无精打采,无心工作,记忆差,手忙脚乱,迟钝,身体虚弱。

从这一刻开始,我应该好好计划我未来的人生目标如何走。要寻找回失去的自信。
我要重新振作起来,不能自暴自弃了。我要蜕变自己。
从健康,运动,工作开始,往这方向前进。

Do Re Mi : 003702

Sunday, June 26, 2016

2016年6月27日 (星期一) 12:45am
今天特别勤劳写感想~ ~ ~
家有固执又自私的一老,只会贴麻烦,造成家里都乱七八糟以及破坏东西。 =.=
费了我整天体力打扫整理而已。

2016年6月22日 (星期三)
休假大打扫如抹四个风扇,抹地,洗地,煮饭菜,洗碗,洗衣,烫衣服都费了我一天的体力。
晚上却突然手脚麻痹隐痛,特别是手麻痹了一整晚使疲累的我完全无法入眠,失眠了整个晚上。
2016年6月23日 (星期四)
看了中医说身子虚弱,很多风在体内,血压低,贫血,缺血,血液不循环导致双手和双脚麻痹隐痛,心口疼痛,头痛,胃痛等的症状。
妈咪一不在,没人替我补身子,整个人什么毛病都跑出来了。

Do Re Mi : 003682

2015年的大纲 ( Summaries year 2015 )

2016年6月26日 (星期日)

最后一次更新部落格已经是两年前(2/8/2014 )的事情了。
现代人喜欢在面子书(facebook) update status,一个Like,follow,多方便。
很少人写部落格了,可是我觉得当你想静静写Grandmother story,在这里的确还是比较好的所在地。
其实重写布部落格是因为发现我已没对象好分享了,以前有什么事儿都是找妈咪聊天。
可是现在妈咪不在人世了,觉得是时候现在还记得所发生的事情留个记录好些呢。

* 请原谅我很差的华语用词,只表达内心的话而已。

那现在简介2015年的大纲吧。
2015年5月31日,我辞职了酒店管理行业。
我目前不会踏进酒店行业,因为它令我留下不好的印象,而且这份工没有日没有夜,要不做6点早上做到12点半夜,太可怜了,完全牺牲生活时间。
我热爱酒管理的工作,可是人心难测,老板娘尽然相信一个擦鞋的小子都不愿意相信工作打拼3年的员工,把全部错误的责任推到我身上让我做臭小子的‘牺牲品’,做替死猫。
我就那么好欺负吗,怪自己太心软了。
我已知道,老板娘明明知道真相是小子搞得鬼,但也是听了旁人(同事)的加料故事与闲言闲语,并有心把我给踢出公司,所以一直逼我辞职。我忍着所有的侮辱与责骂为了洗脱罪名,却别坏人(臭小子)一次又一次陷害了。最后决定在2015年5月31日辞职了,告别酒店管理行业。
但辞职后并没想过放过我,还加意陷害,将我名誉损失把我没做过的‘坏事’宣传在关丹所以酒店行业的还登报纸呢。
*心情:糟透了,第一次无言无辜做‘牺牲品’还要关丹酒店界名誉损失。
*经验:人心难测,看到所谓的两面人的同事们,只能说这也是一种磨练。
*可是我相信现在在关丹酒店界,也没人记得这件事,毕竟我只是小人物,不重要的。

2015年月7月20日看到GPMSB挂了一个banner聘请人,就walk in interview直接对老板和老板娘面试了一个小时,不久我就被录取了,感恩这一切的机缘。

2015年月10月23日生日应该是开心却在前一天(2015年10月22日) 工作时扭伤了左脚 T.T
带着疼痛的伤工作是我自己自作自受,结果关节根部严重到肿了一个大包,10月23日就请假在家养伤,什么生日节目通通取消,在家养伤。
很爱很爱我妈咪一路天天和我按摩推拿脚伤,她果然是厉害按摩,佩服。

2015年月11月10日2013年3月9日到2015年11月10日的两年半的爱情告一段落。
果然不是我要的类型很难容纳进我的世界,但他也尽力了。
是本小姐要求太高,一次一次面临失望的悲剧,一次一次给机会他改变,还是一样的结果。因此对他已经心淡了。反正我家人没有一个对他印象好,和他提出分手了我反而轻松多了,没有压力,不需要配合他的生活方式了。

2015年就这样简单带过。


26 June 2016 ( 26/6/2016 - Sunday ) 
It's had been 2 years ago (2/8/2014 ) since last time wrote the about my daily life.
Nowadays  it's easier and fastest way express your feeling at Facebook,instagram,wechat,whatapps, line with a photo.
Sometimes it's better to write a grandmother's story at blogger ,because it's a place for you to write an long story articles. Or should I said I have nobody to express my daily story anymore since my mummy passed away on March 2016. So, here I'm come back blogging again.

*Forgive me for my poor grammar & vocabulary in English writing,I'm just express my feeling by words.

31 May 2015 (31/5/2015)
It's a date that I'm resigned the hotel management industry career as a marketing executive.
I won't step into hotel industries for this moment as it's makes a bad impression for me, besides it's no life working that you will start work at 6:00 am til 12:00 midnight.

It's a bad experience once you being framed by newbie colleagues. Boss willing to believe a newbie than employees who work and serviced for three years hard work. The boss knew the truth what the newbie did and put all his dirty work on me and I'm become a victim. =.= Am I that easier get bully ?
I endured all the insults and humiliate and being framed again and again. Boss determined to set/kick me out of the company and use this reason to force me resignation.
Although I'm had resigned, they still spoil my reputation in hotel industries in kuantan and published at facebook/newspaper and create my fake wrong doing ( things that the newbie did, not me T.T )
* Mood : felt terrible for the first time reputation being spoiled in hotel industry for unreasonable excuses.
*Experience : Experienced two sided people among colleagues, it's a journey I need to face, then I shall accepted and move on.
* I believe nowadays in hotel industries nobody remember this case since I'm just a small potato and no important at all.

20 July 2015 (20/7/2015 )
I walk in interview when saw a banner at GPMSB and being hired after an hour interview by boss.
Thank,god ! I found a job ^_^

23 October 2015 (23/10/2015)
The day before my birthday (22 October 2015) , my left leg sprained and injured, it's take a month for me to recover. All celebration event cancelled and rest at home. Thank for my lovely mummy who do the massage treatment for me during the month.

10 November 2015 ( 10/11/2015)
9 March 2013 til 10 November 2015 ,two and half year love story came to end.
Yes, I broke up with him since he is not my ideal boyfriend that I want.
Yes, he had disappointed me many times and unchanged attitude throughout the year and I'm had bored with it. Bad impression to my family is unacceptable and I had made the decision to end this love.

That's summaries of 2015 year.

Do Re Mi : 003682

Friday, August 1, 2014

Brand New Month of August 2014

2/8/2014 Saturday

It's had been 9 months since last time I wrote about myself.
It's excuse if I'm said ' I'm busy' , ' I've no time ' .
Let's me straight forward : Yes, I've no inspire to blogging ~ no motivation at all ~

Within these few months, there are lots of things happen
Always meet with the same type of bad attitue people ~.~
However I had met lots of business friend, friends of enjoying life ~friends of everywhere ~
Thank, god ! I have supportive from my family, lovers and friends.
I will appreciate our relationship~
I'm not easy give up , but always de-active or de-motivate for certain moments.
But once I'm start the engine of motivate, you will never know what's abilities I can do !

I'm just mumbling ~ Learn Fast , be smart , be socialable ~
You can do it , Callie !

There's meaningless of arguing and complaining .
 I learnt to forgiven people and let it go.
Mature ~ growing ~ success ~

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Friday, November 29, 2013

坚强 Be Strong , Smile is the best mask ^^

29/11/2013 Friday

For all these few month, what I had been go through once again I being bullied and abandoned .
I have a good personality that make people jealous of me ?
Please have a respectful personality , but not that kind of rude attitude toward people.
Ego, bad temperature, easy jealous,irrespective of yours ! Bad Attitudes only will destroy yourself !

However, I know that's not reason for me to anxious for her.
These small matters of her is just because she unsatisfied for unknown reason towards me =.=
Once again, from primary school, secondary school, college life, working life...
For all these years, those people who hate me still surrounding me.

Is this challenges that the God would like to test the independent girl like me ?
I accepted your challenges, however I won't get lose easily and being a smart girl , win is no important, but the way you treat people with your heart.

By the way, I'm officially survived working at this hotel for a year ~
I'm officially graduated as beautician consultant which include knowledgeable in beauty and health.

My experience included  :
1. Sales & Marketing Executive
2. Beautician
3. Nutritionist
4. Freelance Reporter 
5. Beauty Consultant


Smile is the best mask to make people being confident for you.
Although perhaps behind the mask of the smile is the bitter of tears

You are a independent girl ! Be Strong, Callie !
Your mummy  are proud of your.

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Friday, August 9, 2013

Sg Lembing Half day Trip

10/8/2013 Saturday

Within these few days , lots of things happen ~
Working non-stop from daylight to daynight...
it's tiring but what to do when  you are lack of staffs >.<
My body are weak and my health isn't good like it use to be.
Luckily I have holiday during raya~
But the times passed so fast T.T
I wish all muslims "Selamat Hari raya"

I felt very happy again as 9/8/2013 (Friday)
I dyed my hair become brownish red red ~love it so much ~.~

8/8/2013 Thursday
Had a whole day
Joyful life and we started our journey on early in morning 6:30am till 10:30pm
Reached Sg Lembing on 7:30pm for having our breakfast, walked around the bridge, snap photo like usual.
During our lunch time at Restaurant Dong Seoul, guest what ~
The car wasn't work at all, blank out >.< no battery ~
OMG! First time traveled with friends and we faced this kind of problem =.="
When we decided to go Cherating for our second plan, it's started raining.
Speechless and at the end we went to sing karaoke.
out with my girls~ Juli,li chien, pei wen, wen shing, yen ping,ya hui~

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Saturday, June 29, 2013

Blood Donation

30/6/2013 Sunday

Yesterday 29/6/2013 ( Saturday )
I went to work like usual, assist the participants for "Blood Donation Campaign"
I went to donate my blood as well, as my blood is "O" and I have very thin and baby blood vessels.
My baby vessels swollen a bit like usual once after I finished donate the blood.
and I only got 330cc , better than nothing.

The total participants for yesterday was great, 86 participants joined us for blood donation.
Great response for the first time held at Rocana Hotel Kuantan.

I went to check G Health for capillary cells, and guest's what.
They said me my brain isn't good due to the capillary isn't straight but curve, I was like =.="
I thought that I got kind of disease or mental problem . >.<
They explained it's may due to I never sleep soundly during sleeping mode .
My intestine isn't good as well as I may get gastric
My lung isn't good as well as I get tired easily
but luckily I didn't have toxic in my body . Good sign ^_^
This sounds like I'm like a weak person T.T

I need holiday !!!! Then I can get some rest :P

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